Saturday, November 14, 2009

Sometimes I feel like I'm spinning out of control.  I just stand in the kitchen and spin from east to north, north to south, south to west.  A strange experience that usually makes me laugh for the ludicrous nature of the whole thing.  It's a flag in my head to slow down, take a deep breath and ask for God's direction.  It comes, sooner or later.  Often it's the forced silence and stillness that my body and spirit desperately need.  And from that particular rest on that particular spinning-out-of-control-day, came the clear indication that it was time to simplify my life.  Easy beginning, start throwing junk out!  Out of my office, out of my living room, out of my life and out of my head!  (Mostly out of my head!)   It's wonderfully freeing and energy enhancing.

There are elements to it that are difficult, even painful.  I've had to say "no" to things I really, really like but are not contributing to my targets...targets to goals.  It won't be "no" forever, just for now.  And that ruffles others' feathers.  I gotta deal with it or next year I'll be in the exact spot I am today...and I wanna' and will be closer to my BIG WHY!

Sunday, November 8, 2009

In the beginning...

I always wanted to be a cowgirl.  These were special days.  My sister, Annie Oakley, is behind me.  She carried a Derringer...and didn't hesitate to use it on me. 

I was happy just to pick the plastic fringe off of my cowgirl vest and chew it like gum...while I waited for the horse (I begged for until I was 16) to magically appear in in the yard.   This was the age in which I decided to jump through the tv screen and ride away with the Cisco didn't work.